past haiku

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=february=
  - [2.23.19] disappointment tastes / like your mouth each time we kiss / always on your tongue
  - [2.24.19] i want to forget / how it felt to be the one / you cherished the most
  - [2.25.19] i am not perfect / i still make stupid mistakes / but i will improve*
  - [2.26.19] i promise you this: / i will love you all my days / and the days after*
  - [2.27.19] twenty-four seven / lo fi chill hop radio / beats to relax to
  - [2.28.19] hating this body / afraid of testosterone / a painful limbo*
  
=march=
  - [3.1.19] from one to the next / desperate to be wanted / a hole you can't fill
  - [3.2.19] you were radiant / a dream become flesh and bone / but hawks do not share
  - [3.3.19] all those years apart / i melt into you again / like you'd never left
  - [3.4.19] stumbling back home / hot skin, dilated pupils / scrambling for love
  - [3.5.19] at your parents' house / warm lamp light and stolen booze / planning our future
  - [3.6.19] menthols and sweet tea / staining my teeth and my tongue / like father like son*
  - [3.7.19] you gave up your dreams / for sick gratification / a need for attention
  - [3.8.19] 悲しい子 / 虹へ消えたか? / 幻滅した
  - [3.9.19] always so thoughtful / careful consideration / for such meaningless words
  - [3.10.19] overcast and cold / white on the ground reminds me / i wish you were here*
  - [3.11.19] tell me i'm special / i'm needier than you think / it's ugly on me*
  - [3.12.19] you make my heart race / in a way that makes no sense / not quite platonic
  - [3.13.19] i am not a joke / my identity is real / i just want respect*
  - [3.14.19] not good enough yet / but still never improving / art is just too hard*
  - [3.15.19] you understand me / most of the time, anyway / at least you're trying*
  - [3.16.19] though we do visit / i still miss my family / i miss being close*
  - [3.17.19] someday we will leave / travel and see foreign sights / get out of this town*
  - [3.18.19] oh, captain marvel / it is representation / just not a good film
  - [3.19.19] i am behind now / unmotivated to do / more of these haiku*